how can we measure up.

i choose to love him. and i am aware at that time that we will have a long distance relationship as long as we are not married.Sabah - Johor.
i went to Semenanjung last week to meet him.
we met.have fun.eat.laugh.shopping.

i am happy that finally i met him after 5months being away.
but that 5days seems not enough.

and i think i get even worse than before.
because i have to start all over again to cope with stuff that im away from him AGAIN.ya again.

after the last week trip, i went back here and kept thinking that i have to wait another 5 to 6 months to meet him AGAIN. because he is coming to Sabah this July. which is our next eye to eye session.

ok. i know i have to cope with that distance as long as we are not married.

ok.enogh of my love life.

whats my accomplishment?

graduat - checked
job - checked
car - ??

what else.yeah. i want a better job with higher pay.i am now an assistant engineer. but practically i am not just doing an assistant engineer job. u should know what i mean.

and some time in last week, i went for a u-dont-want-to-know interview. its not like a formal interview. but it kinda an interview for a job but in a different way. sorry i have to cover up to make sure u guys doesnt know what interview i've intended.

when peeps ask why did i decide to attend that. i told them i want to know how far can i go. just like when i went for the Pesona Nona audition. how far can i go. outside my own field, the engineering.

ok this is the biggest secret (maybe not for some people) - i really want and wish to be a singer/dancer/model/actress/entertainer. ahaks. but ya. it is true. but it is not that i dont want to be an engineer. i want to be an entertainer with a brain.

oh.what a crap im talking about.
saja membunuh masa sabtu ku di pejabat.

ok.so.

what then is a measure of a life, is it define by the people we choose to love, or is life simply measure by our accomplishment, and what if we fail or never truly loved, what then can we ever measure up?anyone?